Friday, July 18, 2025

Quiche lament

Yesterday afternoon I made the worst quiche ever. I forgot to put in any cheese, then overcooked it. I must have been distracted. (It's strange that even though Toby wasn't my dog he keeps popping into my head and I have to make an effort to think of other things as I haven't yet reached the 'look back at happy memories' stage. Thinking about quiche obviously wasn't effective enough.)


The bottom was under-cooked, the crust was over-cooked. You can tell the texture isn't right by the little holes in the quiche mixture. Asparagus and bacon should have been really nice. I was very disappointed. As I've said before, I am convinced I can't make pastry but yesterday it seemed just right when I was rolling it and it falsely encouraged me.

Ah, well. it'll have to do for dinner again this evening.

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I saw a lovely poem on Facebook. It's called The Eulogy I Didn't Give by Bob Hicok. There is a wonderful line in it:
The best thing about my mother's apple pie: she was here to make it.


And I've just finished reading Still Life by Sarah Winman. A perfect book! Joyous, life-affirming, intelligent, wonderful characters, just gorgeous. 

Thursday, July 17, 2025

Things Toby was good at and other stuff

Toby was very good at:
pooing on the edge of kerbs, on the side of rocks, and up trees;
chewing sticks until his mouth bled (every time);
chasing seagulls to within what must have looked like catching distance before they calmly flew off;
running up the sides of cliffs (he thought he was a mountain goat);
and something else I thought of this morning but that escapes me now.

I remembered! Not looking when I'm throwing the stick so running in completely the wrong direction!

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Yesterday I booked tickets to see Bob Dylan in November. When it was announced he was playing three dates in Swansea we thought it was a joke but no, it's true. I'm not a huge fan unlike my hairdresser - but Dylan's a legend so got to be done. I think it's the Dylan Thomas connection that brought him here.

Tickets successfully booked it was off to town. I had my finger measured and the jeweller is sending it away to get an accurate costing for me but it's likely to be about £200. I took in my grandmother's ring and asked about the possibility of getting them melded together to make a new ring. The girl said, yes, we can do that, but it's very complicated and would cost about £1,000. "Forget it," I said.

Then I bought fifteen pairs of pants and a bra in M&S for less than the price of one bra in Madame Foner. We're going on holiday next week so I decided to splurge. Actually I began that on Monday - Daughter called it 'stress shopping' - and bought three new summer tops, all slightly out of my comfort range in either style or colour. And I reluctantly opted to go up a size. Better admit the weight gain than wear tight clothes that show off the bulges.

And then it was to the hairdresser. He also got a ticket for Bob Dylan in the presale and plans to get another one tomorrow when they go on sale properly - don't understand that presale thing but anyway. He is a huge fan but didn't like his country and western phase. "Hm, no," I agreed, not even knowing he had a c&w phase.

Rush back from hairdresser's to school for the Pennard Leavers' Show. GrandSon3 moves on to comprehensive in the autumn. He was a footballer in the show - no surprise there - and GrandDaughter2, who has another year left in Pennard, was a minion.

Finally home and back to the jigsaw I began on Monday afternoon. It is the only thing guaranteed to stop me thinking sad thoughts. I finished it this morning!


A number of the jigsaws I've done recently seem to have one piece missing. Has it become a thing? To retain one piece as a souvenir?! Don't look too closely at the top of the jigsaw: I might have forced some pieces in after trying every piece everywhere.

And now I'm preparing for our holiday in Cornwall next week. The weather forecast isn't brilliant so my packing has to cover all eventualities, except perhaps snow. It's a good job we'll be in the car and I can load up with flimsy t-shirts and woolly jumpers.

Tuesday, July 15, 2025

Goodbye, Toby

I was going to go to exercise class this morning but then Daughter asked if I wanted to walk with her and Louie. I said yes because I wanted to get that first walk without Toby over with. My last walk with him was last Tuesday when the four of us walked through Ilston valley.

Toby belonged to Elder Son, Daughter-in-law, GrandSon1, and GrandSon3. He was an 8-year-old Nova Scotia duck tolling retriever. He was lovely and gentle, an ideal family pet. He was mostly well-behaved, stolen pizza slices excepted, and he loved his walks.

I am surprised by the strength of my reaction to his death but I realise it's because Toby became my surrogate dog. I would walk him usually once a week, and as soon as I appeared at their door Toby would go crazy and be ready for the off. My pockets were always filled with poo bags and doggy treats. He was my buddy in adventuring, following paths we probably shouldn't have, going with me where no-one else would. And, of course, he stayed with us when his family went away.

As a young dog he had meningitis; he also suffered with digestive issues meaning his diet was restricted - meaning he loved treats and things he shouldn't have! 

It has all happened so suddenly. At the start of the month Elder Son took Toby to the vet because he appeared to have an eye infection. When the vet checked him over she expressed her concern and voiced the words, "blood cancer". A blood test and gland test confirmed this at the beginning of last week. Mid-week he started on steroids and perked up and looked set to come on holiday with us all next week. Then Sunday evening came the bad news.

Yes, as was mentioned, a quick end is better than a long-drawn-out painful one but the suddenness caught us all unprepared I think. He didn't show any signs, seemed so well, yet I assume he must have been ill for some time. But it didn't slow him down on our walks.

I always said they should put a tracker on Toby just to see how many miles he covered. He would disappear into the woods, be gone for ages, and then re-appear from a completely unexpected direction. He always managed to find us again. Except that one occasion when I lost him! (Fortunately he was found and Elder Son received a phone call from the finders.) He had gone back to where he thought I would be and I had gone where I thought he would have gone. 

It was difficult to get a good photo of Toby because he was never still long enough. The one I posted yesterday was the best.

2017 I think, a young Toby


2019

2022 with Louie

2022 one of his favourite things: eating sticks

Last time Toby and Stella stayed all rules about not
being allowed upstairs went by the board.

And the only photo I have from our last walk.


Monday, July 14, 2025

Life does indeed suck

A terrible end to a lovely weekend.

Last night Toby, my walking buddy, died.

He was diagnosed last week with blood cancer but given steroids and was expected to live 6-12 months. The steroids perked him up but last night he collapsed and died. He was only eight years old.

I'll write more about him later.


Sunday, July 13, 2025

Life sucks

Our lovely young new pastor has just returned from holiday. Almost the first thing he said when reaching the 'pulpit', for want of a better description, this morning was "Sorry."

Apparently the last time he spoke in church someone, not from the church, had listened to the recording and picked him up on his word usage. He was told he should not have said, "Sometimes life sucks." It wasn't a theological argument but an etymological one. So the pastor was apologising in case anyone had been offended by his use of the word 'sucks'.

I messaged the pastor later to say, "Ignore that idiot."

Very few of us would be aware of the source of the phrase - and there are several theories anyway - and even if we were, the way the word was being used was not offensive. Words aren't offensive of themselves. They only become offensive in certain situations or contexts, if directed at others, or used as a term of abuse. 

Incidentally avocado is from the ancient Aztec word for testicle so I hope the unnamed critic is aware of that fact and never has cause to order it, or worse still, guacamole, meaning testicle sauce.


Hot, hot, hot

First things first: Wales finally won an international rugby game! After losing the previous week to Japan this week they beat them. Not a brilliant performance by all accounts - I didn't get up to watch it - but any win after 18 losses is to be celebrated.

What else? Yesterday I gave a talk to the local Torch Trust group, supporting blind and partially sighted people all over the world. I wouldn't have been surprised if no-one had turned up: it was the hottest day of the year. A record thirty-six (36!) degrees in the shade in our garden.

But there were about twenty-five people there so I was really impressed. It was quite a quaint little meeting with a register, collection, and songs. The good thing about the hymnbooks was that they were all large print!

I think my talk went okay. Only one woman fell asleep - only one that I noticed anyway. Another woman asked to see my notes afterwards as she was deaf and couldn't hear me. Then one woman came up to me and said, "I want to say something and I hope you won't be offended."

Oh crumbs, I thought but I smiled encouragingly.

"You have a lovely smile! Well, you have a lovely face but your smile lights it up."

I can cope with that. And I've got another gig out of it, this time to talk about Zac's, which is my favourite thing to talk about.

Back home and into the pool. I bought a flamingo ring in the charity shop. A woman standing behind me in the queue said, "You won't get your bottom in there!"

So I had to prove her wrong.

To be fair to her, the hole did look quite small in the photo on the box.

And you would not believe - or perhaps you would - the struggle it was for me to get in that position, not because of the size of my bottom but working out how to get my legs up there. GrandDaughter2 and I were in hysterics.

One of my new gladioli was leaning over so I picked it and some others.





Thursday, July 10, 2025

Putting the place to right

Spent the morning in Zac's doing some cleaning. The builders have finally finished leaving us with a mess to clean and walls to paint. It's going to be fab!

I washed the wall to the right and cleaned the window and radiator before scrubbing the front door, inside and out. When I opened the door to clean the outside several of our friends stopped to chat, which was lovely even when I didn't entirely follow them or understand what they were saying. But they were all good-natured!

Then I started on the chairs. First I dusted then I hoovered then I went over them with a damp cloth.

Then after all my hard work I messaged Husband and suggested he pick me up and take me to Verdi's for lunch.


Oh, and here's a little posy from the garden in the vase I painted.






Wednesday, July 09, 2025

No M or P please

What sounds like a duck but isn't a duck?

Unless it were a duck that fell out of a hot air balloon and landed at the top of a tree.

I took Daughter on the walk to Ilston that Toby and I explored last week and that's where we heard the duck in the tree.

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After seeing a woman in the library with a book journal I bought one for myself. I can check it to find out if I've read a particular book before - unless, as sometimes happens, I didn't write it in my journal.

That aside, I have noticed two interesting things:
I read more books beginning with M (I ignore 'The' or 'A') than any other letter;
I DNF (did not finish) the last four books I borrowed that began with P.

My M collection has taken over all of O and is spreading into the end of N. And the books prior to the last four P all only scored 3 or 3.5 *. 

From this I deduce I should avoid books beginning with P, and for the sake of my journal, M.

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For Christmas Daughter gave me The Magic Words by Joseph Fossano. Its tag is, "Unlock the poetry that lives inside you."

Yesterday afternoon we had writing group and I got everyone to have a go at a few of the poems. It was amazing the variety we produced. Everyone grumbled a bit but all eventually conceded it had been interesting and helpful. I saw progress in a couple of people so I was very pleased. For myself the exercise proved that I do not have poetry living inside me - unless it is buried deep in those miles of intestine.

Because my printer wasn't working I had to write the templates on a flipchart and, in case you'd like a go, here they are.


I suggested to the group that they could take away their basic poems and fill them out, because it wasn't always easy fitting in exactly what was required. But I doubt they'll do that! Although we have one lady who is very poetic and descriptive in her writing so it would be interesting to see her expanded version.